My Journey to NoFap and a life beyond NoFap

My Journey to NoFap and a life beyond NoFap


Hey,What's up Fapstranauts.I'm here again,now I have tried and failed so many times to stop MO and PMO.I have my a choice and I want to stick to it.This my year, a life of NoFap begins!!!
Here's My Story:Life before NoFap
I'm currently 23 years old and single.I have first started masturbating at the age of 9,it wasn't the conventional way though.It was something new to me and my first orgasm made me feel incredible,this made me want to do it more and more each time.The following couple of years,I continued to masturbate about 3 times week.I didn't discover pornography until the age of 15,but before that I used to mentally fantasize about sexy women,I saw them wearing the most revealing clothing at that time.Then it was at age 15 when I was still going to school,a friend introduced me to porn.He sold it to me via DVD and it contained various types of scenes and compilations.It was right there and then that this whole addiction to pmo started.

I would watch porn for hours on end when my parents or no one was at home.I felt an overwhelming rush from it,I guess that was the dopamine's rewarding effects from watching porn kicking in.I would suddenly find myself watching it everyday,every time I got the chance,I would fap.Maybe deep down inside I was using pmo to fill a void in my life.Then it suddenly hit me.I was addictted to the feeling and needed to stop.I realized that was becoming too dependant and decided to go without it,so I would have to do something drastic to stop myself from fapping and pmoing.One day,I just threw out all my porn collection,and swore on the bible to never fap again (this was back when I was religious) thinking it would help.

It didnt work.I made to 25 days my lifetime best so far without MO or PMO.Fast forward to age 17 when I got the Internet right at the privacy at my own home.I was at that moment that I found out about high speed Internet porn,which would allow me to be left to my own vices.I was masturbating 4 times daily for about 5 to 6 times weekly.I was hooked on pmo like a drug,I would eat,sleep and breathe this thing everyday.I couldn't imagine living without it.I dint have a girlfriend,or even had the confidence in myself to approach a girl and strike up a conversation with.My self-confidence was incredibly low and hated how I looked in the mirror.Some people would tell me that was handsome,but I didn't see it that way.

I was envious of most of my friends who were in relationships with women that I should be with.I wanted to be in their place, having someone to hold on to.I knew I was addicted to porn but I just couldn't bring myself to stop.I also realized that I was using porn and masturbation to escape my own insecurities and loneliness.It was at age 21 years old that I had my first love.It wasn't a relationship that was a happy one or a compatible one.I endured it because of the promise and hope of having sex with her.The relationship didn't last,but I had the joy of experiencing sex for the first time with another human being,was pleasurable.I didn't have any pre-mature ejaculation and orgasmed either.I then had come to the realization that porn was the number one enemy and was unnatural to humanity.

I decided that I needed to beat this addiction for good and searched the Internet for a website that knew what my problem was.This is how I found NoFap.

New Chapter of Growth:A Life of NoFap

This website has become my saving grace for me, from this very overlooked (by society) addiction.I never knew that there was a site that was dedicated to a life without masturbation addiction and porn addiction.Thank you!!! Alexander:cool:I'm going to give this as many tries as it takes to get clean.

My Goals:
I want to beat my personal best 25 days no PMO and no MO.

I want to reboot for 100 days (this means no edging or searching for subs to P)Of MO and PMO.

I want to go an entire year without porn and masturbation.(365 days)

Then I want to reach 1000 days and beyond.I want to reach at a level where I don't need to masturbate or look at porn ever again.

Steps that I have taken to stay clean during my reboot:
I have downloaded k-9 to block my search for porn and gave the password to my brother.

Find a hobby or something to get mind off my urges eg drawing,writing etc.

Exercise regularly,I have already start going to the gym.

Don't touch my d**k only to urinate,taking a bath and having sex.

Try not stay alone in the house for too long in the house.

Mediation 3 times daily everyday.This should help to curb my urge to fap and watch porn.
How I plan to use NOFap to become the ulimate version of myself.

I heard from Fapstronauts who gone a 100 days and beyond that they have experienced "superpowers".I want to acquire this ability if it truly exists.




    • I want to be able conquer all my deepest fears.
    • I want to be able to just walk up to beautiful woman and just ask her out and not caring about rejection.
    • I want to able to gain more experience with women and in the process finding the woman of my dreams.
    • I want to be able to be with a woman and not have to resort to using porn to escape from reality.
    • I want to be more confident in myself,become centered,strong, become a better person and lover.
    • I want to completely channel all my sexual energy into something that I have a strong passion for and be good at it.
    • I also want to skydive,visit Japan for 1 year,travel the world someday,learn MMA and learn 5 different languages.

Here I go towards the Journey of a Life of NoFap.
I appreciate all the feedback and support.Thanks!!!
Last edited: May 8, 2016

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